Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Simon's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
12:37 pm	What have I done so far this year? New Year/first week of Jan - Ill, chest infection that triggered asthma dormant for approx 20 years. Finished off 3k essay, written 2.5k essay and lastly written 8k essay. At last I am up to date with all my Uni assignments, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders, now at last I can concentrate on the more important things in life, loved ones, friends and hobbies, with a more even even distribution of archaeology workload. Oh,I also managed to squeeze in a very hard weekends work for the history channel, yes it did rain hal of the time. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 2nd, 2003
12:48 pm	Upbeat for a change! What can I say? Things have been looking up to say the least and so much has changed over the course of the last few weeks. Clare and I spent the day together chatting and drinking tea the day after my works do, this would be Sunday 15th and we decided to see each other after all. To be honest this is one of the best things possible everto happen to me! She is intelligent, beautiful and damnably sexy. She has a degree in Pychology and started to study Ancient history but had to give up but she wants to take it up again when the opportunity arises. We can talk about history, home furnishings, food, wine, beer and so much more. Hopefully we can actually carry out some of the things we have talked about, but now we must just take things as they come. The only problems have really are my insecurities and the fact we are so used to giving to others that have trouble receiving from each other, but at least we spend an awful amount of time talking things through. Christmas could have been better it left me feeling rather empty seeing her off on the train on the eve, but we both had families to visit so it couldn't be helped. Spent a lot of time drinking with family and friends but now it is time to admit that Merthyr is no longer where I belong, I felt almost completely alienated by the atmosphere and sheer small mindedness of the place, one of my schoolfriends girlfriends said my New Rocks looked gay! On top of meeting my future brother-in-laws father and uncle, some of his friends were there one of them immediately assumed I am gay because of the way I dress! I missed Clare dreadfully over the few days we were apart and it was reciprocated which is fab. I met her dad and his partner last Friday, they both seem really nice and he seems to like me which is a possitive sign. Seems I have been voluteered to put up the shed he is buying for her and a few other chores. Not that I have a problem with any of this, I said to her that if I help her with her house would she be willing to help me in return. It is so nice that we can we oursleves with each other and can have so much in common. I think I shall witter on later, but this will do for now. Happy New Year to all my friends, you are all in my thoughts. Current Mood: enthralled (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 11th, 2002
12:36 am	Crapola Today is not a good day, it is the 9th December and it should have been I and Amelia's first anniversay together. Now I really do feel down. Also found out tonight that Clare, the girl that snogged me the Friday before last, we got off with each other this weekend, is still fucking her ex boyfriend. It seems until she knows me better and is sure of a relationship with me that this will continue! Pants! Arse! Feck! Bloody women - can't trust any of them to keep their word, or do I just pick the wrong one's and then fall in love and am betrayed by them? No wonder I'm insecure. I find some things odd, but if she's happy with the situation then I guess I'm happy for her. I mean Amelia when I mention this by the way. Bugger, I also have to ask for a week's extension on my essay. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Monday, December 2nd, 2002
12:37 pm	Weekend A very odd one for me. I had Friday afternoon off so I could do some shopping, I even managed to get into the library and borrow some books on Neolithic and bronze age pottery. Now all I have to do is think of an essay for next week! Decided to treat myself to lunch in the Tap and a few drinks, The steak was cooked or rather rare to perfection! Yummy! Ali and some more friends cam in later so I stayed out longer than anticipated later we all moved for more room and I ended sitting by some girls. I apologised for invading their space and we started chatting, the one did a degree in Ancient history so we had something to talk about, she's also a Leo and 32 and single, was sort of interested but as I was seeing Ellie I chose not to do anything about it, but then when I had my coat on to leave she grabbed me and snogged rather hard! I left very soon after that, called Ellie to say I was going to be late on-line. Ended up going to Ipwich that night , very late and only got about an hours sleep eventually. Her daughter was up at 6am on a saturday! Heathen! Ellie is really nice but in the end there was no spark there, not like when I met Amelia or Ree. She also has such a different perspective on life and sense of humour, we just aren't it. Definitely starting to get the notion that there is no-one for me other than Amelia ot Ree. Pants! Why on earth can't I do things right? Woke up at 9am yesterday on the floor in the livingroom, telly and light still on, not good! Had sunday dinner in the Tap yesterday again, it's good food and cheap, there are other people in there I know and this way I don't have to cook or clean up afterwards. Talked to Dev while she worked, we've talked before, she's the girl we got the LGG t-shirt for, she's nice and cute. We talked for ages and when her shift finished she joined me for a drink. She's moving to Eire in january which is cool but pants. One of Harley's friends thought we were a couple! Lol! Never mind she gave me her phone number and had mine so we'll keep in touch anyway. I have a hangover today and really didn't want to get up to say the least. My thoughts are still mostly of A, I can't help my feelings and they don't seem to be abating any. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Friday, November 29th, 2002
7:32 pm	Typical I had my appraisal in work in I thought I was in trouble last time, I'm being given more resposibilites again. At least Carte Blanche has been offered as far as returns go, see what I can do with the complete fuckup this is - Bloody Belgians! I also went into the find person by interest on this diary, compared who has the most similar. Gues who was number one on the list? Yes that's right readers: Amelia aka VioletsRose How's that for irony? The love of my life and ex-girlfriend (unfortunately, down to my stupidity)! No escaping the fact is there. Sorry Lilith, having problems adding you as a friend for some reason. To all my friends that have been so supportive: I love you all to bits. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Eimear Quinn (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 27th, 2002
12:45 pm	Ummmmm Finally decided to get a live journal, maybe it will help to 'write' down everything and sort my thought processes out. I have to admit, not that it will suprise anyone, that the last three months have been the worst in my life. I have the lost my soulmate and am lost without her.We aren't even talking either which doesn't help. I know she has started to see someone, best of luck to them both. Maybe she will forgive me my faults of which there are many I am sure someday, and who knows what the future will bring. Am I an optimist or just too stubborn? Stupid thing is I still love her and would do anything to rectify the situation, but i know she's not interested. To all outward appearances I am almost back to normal, I seem to have regained a semblance of a sense of humour. I'm trying but things seem so pointless. I received an e-mail on a Tuesday morning to say it was over, after the previous night Amelia and I had been discussing getting engaged officially after her mums treatment for cancer had completed, moving in together and where to go on holidays next year. We had even started to look through property pages for a house for her mum so we could move her here too. How could have been so stupid to think someone could care for me as much I loved her. I have been sniping at her on the club site which only makes me feel momentary satisfaction then I just feel guilty and ashamed, I don't think she will ever know how much she has hurt me or even cares. Sometimes I think the world would be better off without me, but I am far too intelligent and stubborn to give in and downright bloody minded! I just don't know what to do with my life anymore, I'm trying to concentrate on my Archaeology but I'm finding it difficult. Registered with a goth dating site, saw someone for about three weeks, it didn't work out as she couldn't handle someone being nice to her! I know why and there are a lot of people out there who deserve stringing up. I'm chatting to a few girls, one of whom I'm meeting this weekend. I'm taking her and her daughter to the cinema and then probably for a McDonalds *shudder* In a friendship capacity I am also talking to an American girl who now lives in Monmouth, met a very nice Aussie girl called Susan at BlackVeil at the weekend. She played an acoustic set there, she has a fab voice, we talked about Dublin and York as she has just visited them. Even got dragged up to dance lots too. Oh well I think that is enough for now. Current Mood: morose Current Music: seventh dawn (Comment on this)